A Happy time

Hey people!

So if you have read my facebook, or know something that's happened recently. I'm currently extremely happy... However there is only two ends to this mess. Me being happy, Utterly and truly happy ... Or me being worse then I am now. And to people who know how I am... It's something that I wanna avoid at all costs, because the risks are getting higher and higher. And after everything I've been through and still am going through, Don't you all agree I should be happy for once? :/

Haha, I'm listening to "Love story - The Scence Asthetics". And it's raining outside, it always rains when I'm in these kinda situations... I've noticed that, But I love the rain. It's cold, and wet ;P And it always seems to clear my head, like the rain washes the bad outta my body. Neat aye ? :)

Scotty <3

(Y) Happiness at last :D

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An Unrelated Story

Hey Guys!

:L Haha, Like I said, More regulary. Bleh, The past few days have been very bleh! Somethings have really been getting me down, but I really haven't been able to bring it up with anyone,a ccept last night. I swear to god I am never drinking vodka again D;

Last night I saw my favourite star light up the sky, it went supernova :( Meaning it could die :'( And tbh it is such an unrelated story, but it really has brought up some things ;/ Which is kinda weird, but thena gain when have I ever been normal HAHAA! The same old story really, you know the story... The one where the blonde boy has to suffer heart break and no matter how much he grows stronger or smarter nothing ever changes. The poor blonde boy ends up finding someone who he thinks can get him through this nightmaric life, and past mistakes... But unfortunatly the blonde boy gets hurt even more... and it continues like this untill the poor blonde boy ends up cold and gray. ;/

You know the story by now :) And even though scenes and characters change, the story remains the same, no matter how much it'd mean to poor blonde boy, not even if it could save his life. Make him normal, give him the strength to make himself not-insane anylonger, but it doesn't happen. Every time ;/

Hmmm, And then all blonde boy's friends just tell him she'he will come along and take me outta his nightmare, but unfortunatly blonde boy only has untill he's 17 to find somebody. Poor blonde boy isn't too happy. But when has he ever been ? ;(

Love Scotty <3

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A tough time

Hey guys, Long time no speak! D:

Don't worry, I'm planning on writing every two days :) So you'll always be updated, I've fallen outta rythme with things, That's really bad. So this season is going to be more of a rant.

Those of you that know me, Also know that these past months and years have been really hard to cope with, and even if you didn't know what happened. You've probably been told a few things about me...

To be honest, the worst things at the moment is me keeping my head in check, I'm starting to feel unstable and again, and are just looking for a way to let out my feelings, and I forgot all about my blog, that's what I made it for in the first place x]

To start off with, why can't things ever be simple for me. As soon as I EVER! get a taste of happiness, it always turns into dust only a few minutes or hours later, why can't anything stay still in my life. Because let's face it, if me and this certain person did continue seeing each other after my birthday, then it would have been better for both of us. But it's the story of my life to be fair, i'll always be unhappy because people don't see happiness within me.

Another thing that's annoyed me, I know that I can help out considerably with my friends problems... Mainly as I give good advice, based on the fact that I've probably been there and done that. Although ohelping other people out with their problems is a distraction to my own, Who can I go to with my problems? ... A good friend along time ago said I needed someone like myself to complete the cycle, but after much thought. I realised that I just need someone who will always be there for me, and that when they say that it's not just false words, they'd mean it. And to be honest I do, Conor, Megan and Kimmy, Luke, Laurie, Chloe and some more are really there for me, and I didn't quite know how much they cared. Even some of my old school friends, Lora and Louise care considerably about me. Even people who i'm distant to because they're always traveling like Laura Heard and them, They do care for me. And I didn't know about it untill tonight, and I'd like to take this opportunity to thank each and everyone of you that care for me, and it would be muchly appreciated if you could tell me please :)

Yes I have a new msn, And I don't mind being spammed on it ;D
:: Va-Scot-A-Raptor@hotmail.co.uk

So thats it on my update, Thankyou everbody.
I'll update soon, Every two days...
I promise.
Thankyou <3

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Time away

Hmmm, Hey people.

Sorry I have not spoke in a while, alot of things have gone off and I needed some time away from all the bad memories in both real life and on the internet. :L If you know me it's a very obvious reason. :)

Sometimes I wished that things would have come back to how they were. But no, I always have to hold back even with my friends, I can never say what I want, when I want. I can't do what I need to do to be happy because I have friends, family and now an underling. :)

So I wanna talk about some new people, Well not new, Just people I'd never thought of talking to or about from normal.

Conor : The nicest guy you could ever meet. And I'm being serious, he's helped me so much in just a few weeks that I've known him, He is kinda alot like me, Even now since I'm teaching him :P I hope he grows and blooms into a decent bloke, he deserves it.
Kimmy : Kimmmyyyy (L) I love her, she is literally like a sister to me, Mainly as we both have blonde hair and blue eyes. And she looks after me, Like I to her. Especially cause we're known as the "Tesco Stalkers" after or staling adventures over guys and girls in there :P
Jade : What can I say about her, She's awesome, always round at my house to rave with me and have a right laugh. She really does cheer me up, You all do x] I wish you the best with Chris (L)

Hmmmm, Alot of other things have gone off too in the past few weeks. I've fallen out, Or pushed away from alot of people that only want me for somethin of there desire. And other things that have gone off that are just too painful to stay around...

Lora, Andrei ETC... I really cba to mention anymore ;P

Okay, I'll be writing alot more recently, Promise (L)

Scotty <3

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