HOLY CRAP!
Took me forever to get back into this account, I used to blog all the time - it's almost nostalgic :3 I'm still feeling pretty sick, not to the discretion of friends and family aha - need to rest before pride '13.
Though I don't wanna run into a few people, but it'll be a rate laugh :')
Hey peeps!!!
Sorry i aint wrote in FOREVER! ;( I'm so sorry, my computer is pretty much a wreckage and my internet is a waste dump so i aint had chance to come very often. That and i forgot my pass for this and finally woke up this morning and remember it, Aren't i a numpty ;D
Well i'm in the most FOULEST mood EVARR. And to top it off so is my girlfriend. OH YEAH, i got news for y'all ;D
First of all, I have a new girlfriend, The most lovely and epic-est one of all :) Sophie Ann Clifford :):) <3 And i'll show her this too.
(Don't even ask about stevie ¬¬ LOL)
I'm now going to college officially in september, To Confetti Music College in the grand old city of Nottingham :D:D:D:D:D
I've started to write ALOT more music in occasion to it all, Afterall i'll need to keep ahead of the game music-wise ;P :D:D:D:D:D:D
Hmmmmmm, I only started to write this blog to keep the Vamp :k happy :D (Y) And also to let off some steam, and tbh its working :):)
Plans for the weekend:
Saturday: CAMPING!!!!!! I've invited some people around to go camping, Don't know where now thanks to my mother ¬¬ But i really don't care, a night away from this place is all good with me :D:D:D
Actually apart from that, its all i'll be doing this weekend.
OOOOOH! last night i did spend it at my brother's watching films with a bottle of the good ol' cider :3 T'was epic, Though the catty 'Daisy' kept me up ALL NIGHT with its constantly meowing and running about because guess what... ITS ON SEASON. For those that don't know what that means, It means IT NEEDS SEX.
So if any cute little male cats read this and want to take a spin on the lovely woman cat, By all means go for it ;)
:L:L
No gingers though, She actually hates them. She runs away from oranges and the colour orange, so i chased her around the house with a carrot :D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Anyway, its been good writing again but i need to get somethings done, Mainly going to play on pokemon and finish talking to sophie :D:D:D:D
Love y'alll <3 xxxxxxxx
Hey guys. :)
Well i haven't wrote for a long time, So i guess i'll tell you the biggest news.
Stephen Lee Bennett :) My new partner, Caring, Loving and fucking adorable. I actually think he might be the one. He thinks i'm normal, He thinks i'm a man and most of all, He understands me. :)
I do love him mwhaha :D
'Baby Blue Eyes - A rocket to the moon' (Our song)
We've had a blast in the past week or so, and he still stands by me through everything. He's also becoming one of my best friends aswell, I owe alot to him :')
Another major event was seeing GLAMOUR OF THE KILL! and YASHIN! :') Was an epic night mainly because i was there with Doodle and Ste-FANNY! but on a serious note it was alot of fun. Saw Shauna and Nicola there too, It was epic. Especially because YASHIN! was jumping into the crowd and shit, and doodle cupped the lead singers sweaty ball sack :') Was halerious. Although we ran into someone i really didn't want to see on the bus (Mentions no names), it was still fun that night. I just hoped that it wouldn't end badly, and well we saw him. Ahhwell, He's outta my life now, I can finally grow and bloom into the person i am >:D
Untill next time.
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Hey guys ;L
Well the flyleaf gig has passed ;( Was epic though, i'm still addicted to them, and the best part is when me and my step-dad was walking from teh carpark to get my ticket we saw her >>>
And she *HIGH FIVED* me :):)
"BrokenWings - FlyLeaf" XD
So yeah, problems are starting to clear up mainly because i cannot be arsed anymore :) No longer will i just get worked up over nothing, i'll just ignore, blank and fuck around with them... Simples :L I've been taking life to seriously recently, and well we all know that at the end of it no one is gonna win if you take life seriously ;D
They were amazing live, and she mentioned all these things about loving one another, and being eqaul and always trying to reach your dreams because on day it'll happen for you got me thinking about all these arguements with my best friend Conor ;L Whats the point? It's just gonna get worse and we will fall out, i'll just ignore him and make sarcastic comments like i used to do before i got attached ;L HAHA.
Plus, i'm realy good at that ;)
Anyway, So yeah, gonna be good tonight. I have a mini-party thing planned. Louise, Lora, Conor, Luke, Jamie (Maybe) are all coming to mine for a mini-rave and we're gonna get so drunk we can't walk :) Granted only conor is sleeping at mine, but still gonna be an IMMENSE night :) Because i know they'll be no drama, no nothing because we aint gonna let it happen, it's sposed to be a good night not a fucking soap opera ;P
Anyway, take care as always.
Local Blonde Muppet.
Scotty
xxx
Hey guys ;/
Sorry for the depressive thing last time i wrote, I just didn't really know what to say or what to talk about and it was really on my mind, it's all so fucked up atm ^^.
Well after today things have been sorted between me and my best buddy, however i'm sure cracks will show sometime soon, They always do... What i don't understand is how can two best friends not know the right thing to do anymore. How come one of them must hurt the other? And most of all, Howcome someone can get inbetween them so easily? This is what i wanna know.
"Dido - Here with me"
As ya' can tell i'm not in such a great mood ;( Shits cracking off in the family, stuff with friends... Even my band is turning to shit... And the hardest part is, i know i'm strong enough to do something about it, but i just can't... To many things have happened since i was last happy, I haven't felt happy in months now... And its all because i'm so easily walked all over...
Thats what i used to be like, Happy and smiling all the time, Always around my friends and now i'm lucky if i see them once a week...
Now i have been shaped into the sick this world wants me to, and it's not going on no more... I started this mess i will bloody change it. I'm not gonna become the sick depressed fool you all tried to make me, No way ;P
It'd be a cold day in hell if i suddenly turned on my back and admitted defeat, and it took along time to realise that for myself :) Even though everyone told me so...
Thankyou everyone.
The beloved Blonde head.
Scotty
xxx
Hey guys.
Well i've finally got the time to update my blog, its been a while but its getting done. The past few months have been great, they've been filled with laughter and joy, untill a few weeks ago... Everything is going down hill and vair fast.
Everyone tells me things will be alright, everything will get better it just takes time. That i must stay in control and must stay positive... But its not too easy when everyday is bleak and dark. It's not even possible to not cry all the time when i'm alone, and even when i'm with people, i'm still alone and still tore up.
I've only just recently found out my best friend has been lieing and using me for the past month or so... And yet how can he see that its not his fault... How can he see that everything he's done has ruined me, its like he's pulling my strings from the dark, making me do things that are normally un-reasonable... And yet why does no one else see it either? Howcome no-one will speak for those that cannot... It's pretty sick tbf ;/ Espesh considering the fact all i've ever done is help him, help everyone around him and clean up his own messes when i can't even handle it myself...
I know i always say the bad things but their are the good times. He's not a bad person, he knows wrong from right. He's saved my life 3 times now, and if it wasn't for him being such a big part in my life then i wouldn't have gotten this far. Not to mention the fact because of our talents our bands music and stigma are immense. The only problem is the bad times over lok the good, because they're worse then anything imaginable. They've taken over me at this moment in time, and i don't even know what to say to him or how to react when i talk to him later... Shouting and cursing isn't something i wanna do, i wanna talk to him as calm as i can be, but how can i do so if he's really fucked things up ;/
We shall see.
Love Scotty.
A friend in need.
xxx
Hey bloggers ;)
My christmas was alright ;D Mainly because i didn't get any sleep that night, stayed up all night and opened prezzie early in the morning.
I got ::
A elec' guitar.
A ticket to Marilyn Manson and Lost Prophets. New straightners.
New hairdryer.
Alot of aftershave and doederant ;)
New phone.
Alot of chocchoc.
Ripleys believe it or not book.
New headphones for the drums (Y).
Amongst other things ;D
Hmmmmmm. Listening to Evanescence - Bring me to life.
So yeah moving on from Christmas, i've gotten myself in abit of a tight spot tbf, I've just gotten over James and Josh and what happened with them ;/ But now I just feel empty, like I'm a shell that could crack at any second, and it isn't really a nice feeling D;
Evanescence - My Immortal ''When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears, When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears, When I held your hand through all of these years, you still have al of me!'' 
So last night was funny, got drunk at Jade's with Laurie, Conor and Ryse hahaha ;D T'was fun actually, though I did go to the park for an hour by myself, sorry for the phone call Lora (Y) ;) I just needed to hear someone talk sense mwhahahaha! :D
Okay so that's about it bloggers ;D
'till next time (Y)
Scotty <3
Hey guys :)
Well today has been pretty fun. Didn't get up untill 2:30pm, I get myself ready and get rushed off to Notts with Lukey :)
Got two new lip barsn for my snakeys, and then have a look around for Lukey's GF's chrimbo present (Try saying that when your drunk haha) and then went to subway (Y)
Went to heanor, went to see someone that didn't even know I existed and then to lukes for guitarhero, equalsthree and cider mwhahahahah!
Went home and just got in for some relaxing time. Sometimes I hate being alone, it gives you time to think, and when you think you ask questions that you know is gonna upset you, mainly because you get no answers. ;/
Listening to Paramore - Playing god.
''Next time you point the finger I'll bend it back and might just break it break it, Next time you point the finger i'll point it to the mirror'' <3
So yeah i don't really feel in the christmass
y mood yet, maybe it'll hit me ;L But untill then I gotta just work up a smile and say 'Merry christmas' hahaha ;D
Hmmmmmm.
It was nice spending sometime with Lora the other day, had to leave her with Kimmy and Kursty for abit whilst I sorted out some things which I know she didn't really appreciate, but I had no other choice, I was thirst.
Saw Andrei and Andy AND Josh down there, so t'was vair amusing :)
I know things aint really been the same between us ever since Josh came along, but tbf things change and people change. But it's not gonna affect anything, she's still one of my BEST Girl friends ;L hahaha. Along with Jodie, Cherryne, Doodle and Bibbs. :)
OOOOOHHHHHHH!
Lost prophets in February! I think Lh is coming but not too sure, it'll be well fun.
Me+Booze+Rockcity=FUNFUNFUN!
:D
Merry christmas, Scotty <3
Hey y'all :)
God has the past few weeks been so tough :/ It's just one of those days when you really need your close friends with you, stamping around town and eating Oreo's :/ Unfortunatley I don't have that anymore. I got these guys >>>>>
Jade&&Kimmy.
Close friends FTW<3
I just feel like crawling so far under a rock, no one will ever find me again :/ Not after all this, and I really don't wanna show my face tomorrow at college either.
When you give someone a second chance, aren't they suposed to not mess things up? Not hurt you? Or is it just me that sticks to those kinda rules :/ Now thanks to someone just really not caring about anything or anyone, selfish bastard D; I'm left in the darkness, hurt and betrayed. And yet, I do nothing about it, I could hit him where it hurts ;) and it wouldn't hurt him. That's the thing with people like me, we're too nice :/
Another thing aswell, I really dislike Christmas ever since the wholse Courtney thing :/ I just don't feel up to it, spending a whole day pretending to be happy, when you have really no reason to lift a finger.
So pointless...
♫ Secondhand Serenade - A Twist In My Story♫
I can only listen to depressive love songs at the moment, I don't even know why I feel this bad, it's like the biggest part of my being has been stolen from me for a second time.
Another time that really has hurt me badly. Ontop of that other bastards are using it against me, being avoided and truly left behind whilst you all have your pretty convosations and you greatest dreams come true.
Enjoy it while it lasts because it wont last long =/
I assure you...
Sorry for the mood, Baiiii <3
Hey guys :/
The thing is about heartbreak is that it's always changing, always shifting its forms to hurt other people. It's something that cannot be seen, something that can be felt and always something that has meaning. Somepeople don't know what it's like, But the truth is I do.
I've spent 2/3 years of my lief in constant hope and love to this one person. All she ever did was turn me away, say that it's her fault, when the fact is I wasn't strong enough for her, so I decided to change... Get stronger, always hoping that one day I could stand beside her, and not behind her like always. Even now I'll remember her face, the way that her hair swung around down to her neck and her lovely shoulders. What I'm getting at is, it hurts like nothing else. Like you should have the heart to say something, but all that comes out is blank misunderstood words. It's like someone took the fire from the sun, it's unbareable...
You could spend your whole existence mourning over the loss of someone or something, but it isn't going to change the fact that they're gone. I've waited my time... Training... Gaining strength, And I feel I'm strong enough to take on such a 'Heavy Burden'.
I live my life through Agape 'Love' and it's shown me that hate and remorse are emotions that just make things worse. They can lead people to do stupid and malicious things... But we're all human at the end of the day.
What I'm saying is. I've tried my hardest to be strong and to be able to carry you through anything, Give me the chance to and I can show you that... :/ I've waited my time, Now it's time to let the past be the past, and let me show you the result of my training and work.
Ilu, Don't you ever forget it.
Scotty <3
Hey all :)
Okay, So I decided to change the colours of a few things... Got bored of the red, starting to dislike it. I dislike the colour Red, the colour of anger and hatred... Bleh, so I went with my favourite colour Green, the colour of nature and calmness :D
God, I've had an immense weekend :) I wouldn't of changed anything...
Friday night:
Basically met with Luke Hart and Ryse Blant, went to Laurie's but she wasn't in she was uptown. Went to take Luke home and ran into Kimmy, had a lovely chat. Luke went home and then we waited for Kim's bus home, when we ran into Conor Brooks ;D T'was a lovely chat, aint seen him in some time, should be seeing him next week cause he owes me ;D
Went to meet Jade, James and Charlotte nest down at Co-Op, god I wasn't in such a good mood then... Got dragged to talk to Jade&James, t'wasn't what I wanted or needed, eitherway... Ended up in me blacking out, stumbling to the park and then smoking. James ran off, so I went to chase him, jumped over a hedge thing and then bruised my hip D; Then ran into Laurie&Tash. They came out with us for abit, after messing around on a park for a few hours, we decided go to Jades house, where stuff cracked off that really isn't my place to say :/
Vair Early Saturday Morning:
Originally Ryse was staying at mine, but due to a few bad experiences with people down near my end, we decided to take a taxi back to Clifton to Ryse's house and stay there. This was at what... 4am ? ;D On a taxi to nottingham LOL! After getting to Ryse's house, we had a few drinks, a few fags then fell asleep about 9am :D
Saturday Afternoon:
We got into Nottingham town about 2pm after getting ours selves sorted. We met Laurie&Tash&Jade&Charlotte in the top floor of Subway haha :DWe walked around town for abit, went for something to eat, then I ran into my best friend DOODLE (Boobs) ;D So I went around with them for about an hour and then got back with the others. T'was dead funny cause I miss her so much and I really wanted to see her, and where else? Outside of Pulp ;D
Saturday Evening:
After getting back to Ilkeston for about Half 6, Laurie&Tash&Jade*Me decided to go watch NewMoon, so we did our hair and got something to eat at my house, then went to watch it up at Le Scala, and it was AMAZING, Still not as good as the book, but I don't think it will ever be. I ended up crying twice D; HAHAHA, Jade fell asleep half way through ;D After the film, I met an old friend outside, Azy (Y) Spoke to him, Decided I needed some sleep, go in and drifted away :)
Yeah, I had a REALLY busy weekend but it was all EPIC! Untill today, when I got nothing to do really...
Lol, I got nothing really planned for next week either, except meeting Lora&Jess (Lora's new College Friendy) but I need to bring someone, so I'll find a date ;)
WoopWoop, Untill next time...
<3scotty<3
Hey peeps ;L
God, I'm starting to hate all these situations cracking off at once. I've been stuck in the house for two fucking days now, and have been going out of my mind insane just because I haven't heard from someone... And then like today you get told so many things about that person, It really is gonna drive me the FUCK insane.
Honestly, What does it have to take for me to talk to that him, or even ring him... :/
FFS.
Actually, I'm gonna try and ring him now ;)
UGH!
All it keeps saying is that annoying fucking voice, 'Sorry it's not been possible to connect your call... Please try again later' FFS!!!
I swear if he don't come on msn tonight, or even facebook I will end up walking to his house in the middle of the night... Actually that'd be rather funny!
Anywho, I'll write tomorrow, Sorry for being angry...
<3 Scotty <3
Hey all!
As i've been in such a good mood about something, or should I say someone... I decided to get creative and write a poem to express my feelings untill I say that person again ;)
I've really had such a good week, me and lora are finally talking and getting along like best friends again. Even though we both really don't deserve it ;) I've met some wonderful people like Charlotte and plenty more, and i've really enjoyed myself. Last night was one of the best nights of my life, not because I hosted a party/booze up ;) But because I got to spend sometime with someone i really like, and for me that doesn't come around often. Although everything seems to be going fine, I still have many doubts and worries if this will continue, mainly I don't know what interferences we shall experience. Kinda like a plane with turbulence ;DHey people!
God it's been ages.
So lets start off with the bad for a change. Well the past few weeks/months have been real tough. With friends coming and going, people twisting things and all other choas going around. Stupid depression meetings and other shit but I think it's coming to an end. My goals in sight and I want it :)
Onto the better, I've really had a chance to sit down with myself, think and work out who I am. And I've come to realise my true friends think I'm so strong I could battle anything, My hearts so big it could cuddle millions and that i'm better then falling back down when the goings get tough.
I owe alot of credit to :
Laurie Smith.
Jade Fenton.
Sasha -Something-.
Kursty Booth.
Jade Mcqueen.
James Cross.
Jack Andrews.
Doodle.
Lora 'Vampy' Corser.
Jodie 'The Sex Maniac' Spall.
And Louise 'Loueth' Braddley.
And the rest that have kept me going, From the bottom of my heart I thankyou.
I'm currently waiting for my damn guitar to get here, Stupid Parcel Force!!! D;
Anyway, I'll write soon, Take care and ty.
Scotty
<3
Hey people! x]
Garrrr, Well I got myself stuck in this mess, even after I run in fear of my life, I'm braught back to the daunting memories and thoughts that I once locked away in my head :/ For some reason I feel as if I shouldn't really be doing anything right now, But I am... Thinking of a way to sort this mess out...
Hmmmmm... I'm not so naive, I have Conor and others, Family etc to live for, but at the same time I don't know if I could stand back and watch this mess unfold. I know that I have alot of self control, but Sebby doesn't. :/ Sometimes I wish that I really don't have to be involved with such hate filled intentions :/
First of all, On the good part of my blog... I've figured something out last night, and then told Conor this morning after I had the pleasure of being rudley awakened... Whilst being less then half dressed xD ...
"A heart filled with Hated, Greed, Lust and power is something not worth fighting for... But a hear filled with love, compasion, care and light is something worth dieing for".
I know that when it comes to situations, some people cannot forgive. I know this I've been through this countless of times, Andrei being one of those times. But still I have learnt that those people who are swallowed up by their lust and hatred are really the victims here. When someone is taken in by such daunting emotions, they become un-aware of the damage they cause everyone around them. And for that single reason is why I try my hardest not to act on behalf of my dark emotions.
At this moment in time, I'm still unaware of what to do concerning this "Hurtful" situation. Personally I don't see what this is all about, I really do not have anything against this guy. Infact trueth be told I thought he was vair cool. I actually can remember helping him out with some "girl" (Kay) problems back in school. I'm nothing but nice to people unless they give me a decent enough reason to stop that pleasentry, Which doesn't happen often.
I've found that people are now starting to talk about me as if I'm some "Big mean Wolf"... But it's really not the case. I would only use what I know and have learnt if there is simply no other way... And in this kind of situation, is it really so criminal to steal someones hate?
"Love is an illusion of hate". Thinking on that logic then all I'd have to do is alter a few things, to drownd that hate in something light, Like love. However some peoples ethics on "Brainwashing" are so stubborn ;D But I see their point, even I only consider it if there is simply no other way.
So I'll leave on this note.
When an avenger acts on their hate, it scars the people around them. And believe me, I put people ahead of myself... So I would try my hardest not to let that happen. Mainly as hurting the people around me would be hurting me directly. Just ask Conor :P
Anywho, I'm now sick of thinking about this...
Byee xx
Hey people.
I supose it's just been a few of them "Fuck it" kinda days. I really cannot be bothered to try please other people that don't appreciate or return the effort. To be honest, I am really thinking alot now. I'm listening to ...
Evanescence - The last song I'm wasting on you (8)
"Demanding my responce, Don't bother breaking the door down, I've found my way out, and you'll never hurt me again..." :/ True lyrics, Now I'm over things like this, I supose I can't be hurt. Expecially through something so meaningless like Love.
"Love is nothing more then an illusion of hate..."
Ooooooh yeah, I just found out something which has actually made me very excited, Someone wanting to hurt me. I think that I really shouldn't rise to it... But really, This person knows what I'm capable of, Not physically, but mentally :)
Hmmmmmm, What would you do if everything that you've loved is melting away. Somehow when I try to make things better, they end up worse. So what if I give in trying all together? I know that I wont get anything in return because people are really all the same. They're only a few people I know that don't act like true humans. And that's the way I like it, People who have supassed the need to act human, people who think what other people cannot...
I'm listening to Evanescence - You (8) now...
"The words have been drained from this pencil,S weet words that I want to give you, And I can't sleep, I need to tell you... Goodnight. When we're together I feel perfect, When I'm pulled away from you, I fall apart. What ever you say is sacred to me, You're eyes are so blue, I can't look away..." :/
I really shouldn't listen to such depressing songs... But when it's all you've got, you find it hard to strip away from the depression and the hurt. When it's all you have left to hold on to, You suffer from it. You drownd yourself in it. And even when you have people to help you through it... You still hold onto the hurt. Because its the only thing that you have left from those people...
Hmmmm, Time for me to go now :P
Scotty <3
Hey people!
So if you have read my facebook, or know something that's happened recently. I'm currently extremely happy... However there is only two ends to this mess. Me being happy, Utterly and truly happy ... Or me being worse then I am now. And to people who know how I am... It's something that I wanna avoid at all costs, because the risks are getting higher and higher. And after everything I've been through and still am going through, Don't you all agree I should be happy for once? :/
Haha, I'm listening to "Love story - The Scence Asthetics". And it's raining outside, it always rains when I'm in these kinda situations... I've noticed that, But I love the rain. It's cold, and wet ;P And it always seems to clear my head, like the rain washes the bad outta my body. Neat aye ? :)
Scotty <3
(Y) Happiness at last :D
Hey Guys!
:L Haha, Like I said, More regulary. Bleh, The past few days have been very bleh! Somethings have really been getting me down, but I really haven't been able to bring it up with anyone,a ccept last night. I swear to god I am never drinking vodka again D;
Last night I saw my favourite star light up the sky, it went supernova :( Meaning it could die :'( And tbh it is such an unrelated story, but it really has brought up some things ;/ Which is kinda weird, but thena gain when have I ever been normal HAHAA! The same old story really, you know the story... The one where the blonde boy has to suffer heart break and no matter how much he grows stronger or smarter nothing ever changes. The poor blonde boy ends up finding someone who he thinks can get him through this nightmaric life, and past mistakes... But unfortunatly the blonde boy gets hurt even more... and it continues like this untill the poor blonde boy ends up cold and gray. ;/
You know the story by now :) And even though scenes and characters change, the story remains the same, no matter how much it'd mean to poor blonde boy, not even if it could save his life. Make him normal, give him the strength to make himself not-insane anylonger, but it doesn't happen. Every time ;/
Hmmm, And then all blonde boy's friends just tell him she'he will come along and take me outta his nightmare, but unfortunatly blonde boy only has untill he's 17 to find somebody. Poor blonde boy isn't too happy. But when has he ever been ? ;(
Love Scotty <3
Hey guys, Long time no speak! D:
Don't worry, I'm planning on writing every two days :) So you'll always be updated, I've fallen outta rythme with things, That's really bad. So this season is going to be more of a rant.
Those of you that know me, Also know that these past months and years have been really hard to cope with, and even if you didn't know what happened. You've probably been told a few things about me...
To be honest, the worst things at the moment is me keeping my head in check, I'm starting to feel unstable and again, and are just looking for a way to let out my feelings, and I forgot all about my blog, that's what I made it for in the first place x]
To start off with, why can't things ever be simple for me. As soon as I EVER! get a taste of happiness, it always turns into dust only a few minutes or hours later, why can't anything stay still in my life. Because let's face it, if me and this certain person did continue seeing each other after my birthday, then it would have been better for both of us. But it's the story of my life to be fair, i'll always be unhappy because people don't see happiness within me.
Another thing that's annoyed me, I know that I can help out considerably with my friends problems... Mainly as I give good advice, based on the fact that I've probably been there and done that. Although ohelping other people out with their problems is a distraction to my own, Who can I go to with my problems? ... A good friend along time ago said I needed someone like myself to complete the cycle, but after much thought. I realised that I just need someone who will always be there for me, and that when they say that it's not just false words, they'd mean it. And to be honest I do, Conor, Megan and Kimmy, Luke, Laurie, Chloe and some more are really there for me, and I didn't quite know how much they cared. Even some of my old school friends, Lora and Louise care considerably about me. Even people who i'm distant to because they're always traveling like Laura Heard and them, They do care for me. And I didn't know about it untill tonight, and I'd like to take this opportunity to thank each and everyone of you that care for me, and it would be muchly appreciated if you could tell me please :)
Yes I have a new msn, And I don't mind being spammed on it ;D
:: Va-Scot-A-Raptor@hotmail.co.uk
So thats it on my update, Thankyou everbody.
I'll update soon, Every two days...
I promise.
Thankyou <3
