Baby Blue Eyes (L)

Hey guys. :)

Well i haven't wrote for a long time, So i guess i'll tell you the biggest news.

Stephen Lee Bennett :) My new partner, Caring, Loving and fucking adorable. I actually think he might be the one. He thinks i'm normal, He thinks i'm a man and most of all, He understands me. :)

I do love him mwhaha :D

'Baby Blue Eyes - A rocket to the moon' (Our song)

We've had a blast in the past week or so, and he still stands by me through everything. He's also becoming one of my best friends aswell, I owe alot to him :')



Another major event was seeing GLAMOUR OF THE KILL! and YASHIN! :') Was an epic night mainly because i was there with Doodle and Ste-FANNY! but on a serious note it was alot of fun. Saw Shauna and Nicola there too, It was epic. Especially because YASHIN! was jumping into the crowd and shit, and doodle cupped the lead singers sweaty ball sack :') Was halerious. Although we ran into someone i really didn't want to see on the bus (Mentions no names), it was still fun that night. I just hoped that it wouldn't end badly, and well we saw him. Ahhwell, He's outta my life now, I can finally grow and bloom into the person i am >:D

Untill next time.
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Broken Wings

Hey guys ;L

Well the flyleaf gig has passed ;( Was epic though, i'm still addicted to them, and the best part is when me and my step-dad was walking from teh carpark to get my ticket we saw her >>>
And she *HIGH FIVED* me :):)

"BrokenWings - FlyLeaf" XD

So yeah, problems are starting to clear up mainly because i cannot be arsed anymore :) No longer will i just get worked up over nothing, i'll just ignore, blank and fuck around with them... Simples :L I've been taking life to seriously recently, and well we all know that at the end of it no one is gonna win if you take life seriously ;D

They were amazing live, and she mentioned all these things about loving one another, and being eqaul and always trying to reach your dreams because on day it'll happen for you got me thinking about all these arguements with my best friend Conor ;L Whats the point? It's just gonna get worse and we will fall out, i'll just ignore him and make sarcastic comments like i used to do before i got attached ;L HAHA.
Plus, i'm realy good at that ;)

Anyway, So yeah, gonna be good tonight. I have a mini-party thing planned. Louise, Lora, Conor, Luke, Jamie (Maybe) are all coming to mine for a mini-rave and we're gonna get so drunk we can't walk :) Granted only conor is sleeping at mine, but still gonna be an IMMENSE night :) Because i know they'll be no drama, no nothing because we aint gonna let it happen, it's sposed to be a good night not a fucking soap opera ;P

Anyway, take care as always.
Local Blonde Muppet.
Scotty
xxx

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Escalator!

Hey guys ;/

Sorry for the depressive thing last time i wrote, I just didn't really know what to say or what to talk about and it was really on my mind, it's all so fucked up atm ^^.

Well after today things have been sorted between me and my best buddy, however i'm sure cracks will show sometime soon, They always do... What i don't understand is how can two best friends not know the right thing to do anymore. How come one of them must hurt the other? And most of all, Howcome someone can get inbetween them so easily? This is what i wanna know.


"Dido - Here with me"


As ya' can tell i'm not in such a great mood ;( Shits cracking off in the family, stuff with friends... Even my band is turning to shit... And the hardest part is, i know i'm strong enough to do something about it, but i just can't... To many things have happened since i was last happy, I haven't felt happy in months now... And its all because i'm so easily walked all over...

Thats what i used to be like, Happy and smiling all the time, Always around my friends and now i'm lucky if i see them once a week...
Now i have been shaped into the sick this world wants me to, and it's not going on no more... I started this mess i will bloody change it. I'm not gonna become the sick depressed fool you all tried to make me, No way ;P

It'd be a cold day in hell if i suddenly turned on my back and admitted defeat, and it took along time to realise that for myself :) Even though everyone told me so...

Thankyou everyone.
The beloved Blonde head.
Scotty
xxx

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Eyes of the abyss!

Hey guys.

Well i've finally got the time to update my blog, its been a while but its getting done. The past few months have been great, they've been filled with laughter and joy, untill a few weeks ago... Everything is going down hill and vair fast.

Everyone tells me things will be alright, everything will get better it just takes time. That i must stay in control and must stay positive... But its not too easy when everyday is bleak and dark. It's not even possible to not cry all the time when i'm alone, and even when i'm with people, i'm still alone and still tore up.

I've only just recently found out my best friend has been lieing and using me for the past month or so... And yet how can he see that its not his fault... How can he see that everything he's done has ruined me, its like he's pulling my strings from the dark, making me do things that are normally un-reasonable... And yet why does no one else see it either? Howcome no-one will speak for those that cannot... It's pretty sick tbf ;/ Espesh considering the fact all i've ever done is help him, help everyone around him and clean up his own messes when i can't even handle it myself...

I know i always say the bad things but their are the good times. He's not a bad person, he knows wrong from right. He's saved my life 3 times now, and if it wasn't for him being such a big part in my life then i wouldn't have gotten this far. Not to mention the fact because of our talents our bands music and stigma are immense. The only problem is the bad times over lok the good, because they're worse then anything imaginable. They've taken over me at this moment in time, and i don't even know what to say to him or how to react when i talk to him later... Shouting and cursing isn't something i wanna do, i wanna talk to him as calm as i can be, but how can i do so if he's really fucked things up ;/

We shall see.
Love Scotty.
A friend in need.
xxx

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The Immortal I haven't found.

Hey bloggers ;)

My christmas was alright ;D Mainly because i didn't get any sleep that night, stayed up all night and opened prezzie early in the morning.

I got ::

A elec' guitar.
A ticket to Marilyn Manson and Lost Prophets. New straightners.
New hairdryer.
Alot of aftershave and doederant ;)
New phone.
Alot of chocchoc.
Ripleys believe it or not book.
New headphones for the drums (Y).
Amongst other things ;D



Hmmmmmm. Listening to Evanescence - Bring me to life.



So yeah moving on from Christmas, i've gotten myself in abit of a tight spot tbf, I've just gotten over James and Josh and what happened with them ;/ But now I just feel empty, like I'm a shell that could crack at any second, and it isn't really a nice feeling D;








Evanescence - My Immortal ''When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears, When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears, When I held your hand through all of these years, you still have al of me!''






So last night was funny, got drunk at Jade's with Laurie, Conor and Ryse hahaha ;D T'was fun actually, though I did go to the park for an hour by myself, sorry for the phone call Lora (Y) ;) I just needed to hear someone talk sense mwhahahaha! :D








Okay so that's about it bloggers ;D
'till next time (Y)
Scotty <3

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Content with Loneliness...

Hey guys :)

Well today has been pretty fun. Didn't get up untill 2:30pm, I get myself ready and get rushed off to Notts with Lukey :)

Got two new lip barsn for my snakeys, and then have a look around for Lukey's GF's chrimbo present (Try saying that when your drunk haha) and then went to subway (Y)

Went to heanor, went to see someone that didn't even know I existed and then to lukes for guitarhero, equalsthree and cider mwhahahahah!

Went home and just got in for some relaxing time. Sometimes I hate being alone, it gives you time to think, and when you think you ask questions that you know is gonna upset you, mainly because you get no answers. ;/


Listening to Paramore - Playing god.

''Next time you point the finger I'll bend it back and might just break it break it, Next time you point the finger i'll point it to the mirror'' <3

So yeah i don't really feel in the christmassy mood yet, maybe it'll hit me ;L But untill then I gotta just work up a smile and say 'Merry christmas' hahaha ;D











Hmmmmmm.

It was nice spending sometime with Lora the other day, had to leave her with Kimmy and Kursty for abit whilst I sorted out some things which I know she didn't really appreciate, but I had no other choice, I was thirst.

Saw Andrei and Andy AND Josh down there, so t'was vair amusing :)

I know things aint really been the same between us ever since Josh came along, but tbf things change and people change. But it's not gonna affect anything, she's still one of my BEST Girl friends ;L hahaha. Along with Jodie, Cherryne, Doodle and Bibbs. :)

OOOOOHHHHHHH!

Lost prophets in February! I think Lh is coming but not too sure, it'll be well fun.

Me+Booze+Rockcity=FUNFUNFUN!

:D
Merry christmas, Scotty <3

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Hmmmmm. Ponders a name!

Hey y'all :)

God has the past few weeks been so tough :/ It's just one of those days when you really need your close friends with you, stamping around town and eating Oreo's :/ Unfortunatley I don't have that anymore. I got these guys >>>>>

Jade&&Kimmy.
Close friends FTW<3

I just feel like crawling so far under a rock, no one will ever find me again :/ Not after all this, and I really don't wanna show my face tomorrow at college either.

When you give someone a second chance, aren't they suposed to not mess things up? Not hurt you? Or is it just me that sticks to those kinda rules :/ Now thanks to someone just really not caring about anything or anyone, selfish bastard D; I'm left in the darkness, hurt and betrayed. And yet, I do nothing about it, I could hit him where it hurts ;) and it wouldn't hurt him. That's the thing with people like me, we're too nice :/

Another thing aswell, I really dislike Christmas ever since the wholse Courtney thing :/ I just don't feel up to it, spending a whole day pretending to be happy, when you have really no reason to lift a finger.

So pointless...

♫ Secondhand Serenade - A Twist In My Story♫

I can only listen to depressive love songs at the moment, I don't even know why I feel this bad, it's like the biggest part of my being has been stolen from me for a second time.

Another time that really has hurt me badly. Ontop of that other bastards are using it against me, being avoided and truly left behind whilst you all have your pretty convosations and you greatest dreams come true.

Enjoy it while it lasts because it wont last long =/
I assure you...

Sorry for the mood, Baiiii <3

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