Just one of those days...

Hey people.

I supose it's just been a few of them "Fuck it" kinda days. I really cannot be bothered to try please other people that don't appreciate or return the effort. To be honest, I am really thinking alot now. I'm listening to ...

Evanescence - The last song I'm wasting on you (8)

"Demanding my responce, Don't bother breaking the door down, I've found my way out, and you'll never hurt me again..." :/ True lyrics, Now I'm over things like this, I supose I can't be hurt. Expecially through something so meaningless like Love.

"Love is nothing more then an illusion of hate..."

Ooooooh yeah, I just found out something which has actually made me very excited, Someone wanting to hurt me. I think that I really shouldn't rise to it... But really, This person knows what I'm capable of, Not physically, but mentally :)

Hmmmmmm, What would you do if everything that you've loved is melting away. Somehow when I try to make things better, they end up worse. So what if I give in trying all together? I know that I wont get anything in return because people are really all the same. They're only a few people I know that don't act like true humans. And that's the way I like it, People who have supassed the need to act human, people who think what other people cannot...

I'm listening to Evanescence - You (8) now...

"The words have been drained from this pencil,S weet words that I want to give you, And I can't sleep, I need to tell you... Goodnight. When we're together I feel perfect, When I'm pulled away from you, I fall apart. What ever you say is sacred to me, You're eyes are so blue, I can't look away..." :/

I really shouldn't listen to such depressing songs... But when it's all you've got, you find it hard to strip away from the depression and the hurt. When it's all you have left to hold on to, You suffer from it. You drownd yourself in it. And even when you have people to help you through it... You still hold onto the hurt. Because its the only thing that you have left from those people...

Hmmmm, Time for me to go now :P

Scotty <3